she has no idea what it is
She thought she suppressed you in her mind
But maybe its just jealousy
Cause no feelings for you are here defined...
It’s amazing that when I see you
I feel nothing like before
The goosebumps, the chills, the heart racing
…no more
Its hard to see us together
Even though we once were
But that’s just how far back youre suppressed
That the memory of you and me has dwindled down
To imagination
The reality of us no more
Sometimes I want to say I love you
Out of habit?
Im not sure
For im not sure I really mean it…as much as I did before
Sometimes I want you to hold me
So that with your touch my heart quickens pace
But as I settle into your embrace the less it begins to race
You know sometimes I want to talk to you
Like we did before
Hours on the phone in conversations that generally had no direction
But we loved to make each other laugh, we both just loved attention
We smiled a lot you and me
It seemed we had so much
You couldn’t say the others name without also mentioning such and such
We argued. Yes we argued. It was amazing how we made it through
“if it wasn't for those arguments the relationship would stay the same...we wouldn't be getting anywhere"
…this was said by you
You had so much hope for you and me
More than I had myself
I thought of us as too good true
We’ll never last, I said to others
But deep down inside I said to myself “I can’t believe I love him so much”
It really made me wonder
How can I be so into someone
Someone I hardly even knew
And then suddenly this person became the one who I pursued
They became the smile on my face
And the half that made me whole
I couldn’t believe I thought that way
So of course I shied away from the role
The role of the confident partner to others
I never said we’d be together forever
I kinda hinted at it though just not to make it seem clingly
Because I would hate to be the girl with all the dreams
And then the guy just leaves her…single…
It made me wonder where we went wrong
I guess it wasn’t us
We just weren’t seeing eye to eye
And a new environment we couldn’t trust
I never knew how long it’d take
For you to pass me by
I mean I never thought you would walk by me
And I wouldn’t reach for your hand
I never actually thought you’d walk by me
And I’d keep the same composer that I am
I never thought that you’d walk by me
And I wouldn’t feel a tug from your heart
I guess I never actually thought we would really be a part
But times change
And people grow
And we all know that apart is one of the ways we may go
So I’ll feel discomfort from time to time as I think about
The way we use to be
But when I put our names together
It never sounds right to me
So I sit and wonder what could it have been
who knows...I probably never loved you...so why'd I let you in?
